Friday, February 27, 2009

To Be Me Again!!

As you know I have not been on here much this week..This has been a flunky week for me...I have felt like PMS has come back to bite me in the butt...mostly it was just a down, crazy, sad and dumb week for me as far as my attitude and my every day existence goes!! WHY? Well, I am sure it has to do with my surroundings...Although very peaceful here I think that I am waiting for the other shoe to they say!!

STOP reading now because i tend to get a little down this week so I thought if i wrote it out maybe it would make me feel better...You know sometimes that does work..Get it on paper...or the computer..whatever!!

The days themselves have been bright and sunny and that has helped me a lot I know...but just the way the economy is right now is starting to get to me. I have stayed in the Bible where I know that i need to be...I have been praying too..attended a great bible study yesterday and do realize that God is in charge..Yes, I really do understand that...Things around me seem like they are falling apart..I feel like LIFE is not going to get back to where it was ever again..I know this sounds so fatalistic...believe me I hate this attitude that I have and want it gone..for good... I told Mike that I really do not feel like smiling.

We went to Wednesday night bible study and pastor Kenny Grant had his last teaching series with us on Joshua 1...He hit me on the head of course...God is doing this...but where am I? I am listening really I am...He was talking about being STRONG AND COURAGEOUS and to remember that God will never LEAVE me or FORSAKE me!! I know this..I know this and have known it was all these years now that I have been saved...

So now I know you are saying..count your blessings..So I go that route and think..I have tons of them...A loving husband that is trying as hard as he can to get jobs; a roof over our heads; food on the table; good health (pretty good); a car that is paid for; gas in it (so far); kids that love us; parents that are still with us; great family that pray for us; a wonderful church; my bible; my bible study; great friends that I KNOW pray for us; bills are paid up to this point; wonderful grandchildren; our young grand daughter getting baptized tomorrow night; WOW!! What more do I want????

I am so sorry to have written all of this out but hopefully this will get me on a better track!! I just need to realize that God is here and He is able to help me...I need to study more and learn more because I believe soon we are going to need to remember his words more and more as the days go on....

Our USA as we have always known it is not going to be the same unless somehow God steps in. I believe that he is letting us understand that once we have left him out of our once God fearing AMERICA that HE is showing us just what he can do....

Those of us who truly believe may have to stand up...We just do not know what is ahead of us...Our freedoms are slowly slipping away. I just want to be able to live out what years God has left for me with my dear hubby in a world where we can function and not have to have constant fears of how things are going to be paid..Just once I would love that world..Course maybe it is not here on this earth..I just might have to live until the next world arrives for me.

On the UP side of things..somehow I have lost 2.5 lbs now on the new food plan with Curves...I have been trying...hard to keep the right foods that you need..seeing as how they are always more expensive...

I am going to have company this next month as Lazy Daisy and Mr. Wonderful will be here with us for a while...that is going to be a wonderful time to have a friend here in the same house....

I am off to the doctor Monday to have more blood work done. My B-12 might very well be low again and making me feel more tired and down...My son in law gave me another injection last night so hopefully I will feel better soon...I LOVE my new doctor and am so happy to have finally found a Good one..I have looked for 8 years now!! WHEW!! Was hard work!!

My mother is having a lot of difficulty with her legs...They just will not hold her up. AND I live about 800 miles away from her!! Not good!! I cannot go there either so I just have to learn that her friends and church are going to have to help this time around.

I am working some part time at Curves and do enjoy the ladies there..I love the interaction with them..

Hopefully all is well in your part of the world whether you are in Canada; Australia or right here in our great country...Together we need to learn that God is our Answer!!


Thought for the day: "Real Friends are those who,when you've made a fool of yourself, don't feel that you've done a permanent job!!"


Denise said...

Amen, God is our answer. I love you my friend.

Denise said...

I love that thought for the day! I love it! AND I had a week like that last week and part of this one... Cried a lot and ate all the wrong things and cried some more.. I am alarmed at what is going on in the country and the changes scare me,, but I HAVE to believe that God is in control and all things must come to pass......

AND congrats on your 2.5 lbs..... BUT I found them! hahahhaha

I think as Christians in this world today our job is to PRAY and look up.......!!!!

Have a blessed weekend !

Smilingsal said...

I know how frustrating it is to be away when your mother needs you.

Deare Diary said...

I wish that I had the words that you need to hear but...I have been right where you are before. People tell you all the scriptures that apply to your need, offer advice, and give you their stories but nothing helps. The reason that nothing helps is already know all of that. Just when you think that nothing could be worse....BAM!!!! So you really don't want to hear all of that advice. You just want it to be better. So all I can say is, keep looking to HIM and the sun will shine again. You have never been out of his sight and he knows exactly where you are.
Love ya,

Anonymous said...

Well, I've read your post twice now and it sounds like you really do have a lot of things to be thankful for. Hope you have a better day tomorrow.


Betty said...

Hi Sandy,

Don't ever feel you have to apologize for writing what you are feeling in your heart whether it be up feelings or down feelings.

One thing you said is so very true and something we all need to remember in these trying times and that is ---- GOD IS STILL IN CONTROL.

I hope you feel better soon.

Love and Prayers,

PEA said...

Sending you big hugs across the miles! I think with the economical uncertainty that is going on right now, a lot of people are feeling scared. The future seems so bleak and one wonders where it's all going to end. I think having God in our lives is the best thing to have and only He can comfort us and allay our fears...we do have to trust that He knows what He's doing:-) I know it's very hard to be thankful for what we do have in times like these but it's something we must strive to always remember. xoxo

Melli said...

He IS the answer - and you DO know it! I will pray for Him to heal your heart and give you His peace. I know it's hard to NOT worry when Mike's not getting much work - but you HAVE to keep the FAITH that God has GOT your back! How is Mike holding up? I'm sO glad Daisy and Mr. W are coming there. I think you need her too!
Love you!

Jane said...

Sandy you are in my prayers. Don't every hesitate to share your heart. You have many here who care for you and when we know your needs we can pray more specifically.
God is listening even when we can't sense His presence. said...

Hi Sandy, This what I tell Nancy "What time I am afraid I will trust in thee" I can't remember what Psalms this is. But sometimes that is easier said then done!! I know!!
I know God is going to work every thing out but we still have our fears!! Trust me things can fall apart at my house real fast some days!!!
When I tell my missionary daughter Carrie, I'am so worried about something she said" Don't worry! Pray! I think of this ofen every time I start stewing about something I laugh and think, well Carrie will tell me to Pray. And I Do!

I do think Jesus will return in the not to distant future! Glory What a day that will be!!

Ok, I am on Karen's computer over at her house. We are having a FUN and a Wii FIT Night! I even got on it and I was able to play one Easy very Easy game!! The girls are having a ball with this new deal.

It was almost 70 yesterday and it is suppose to snow tomorrow!!
I think you and Daisy will have the best time catching up on all what all this has been going on. Love and a BIG hug. Carolyn

Needled Mom said...

As bad as things are in our country right now, I just have to feel that God knows exactly what he is doing. Perhaps this will turn many more people towards Him like it was after 9-11. We can only pray that will happen.

Darlene said...

Wow for a minute I thought maybe you were the bug on my wall. Actually, in my head! I too have been down in the dumps and I know that I have sooo much to be thankful for. Life is hard at our house right now...finances are very hard to juggle.
You are right....God is in control and He will see us through!

I like the way you put your feelings out there...and how you put it all into words ...You make it real! Thanks for sharing!!!

Heart of Rachel said...

Thank you for sharing all your blessings. It's uplifting to reflect on the wonderful aspects in life.

Glad you found a good doctor. May you blood work all come out favorable.

Wishing your mom well. God bless.

Zaroga said...

Sandy I think you wrote a lot of what I'm feeling. I feel overwhelmed and there is nothing that I can do about anything but pray.

Susan said...

I'm praying for you and I know that God will continue to reveal himself to you in so many ways. I love that you shared's important to be who you are!