Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Today...another day at Hospice House...another day of watching Betty deal with this awful disease that someone named Cancer!! It is the awfullest thing to watch. I know this whole thing is so hard on Betty. Yesterday she was sitting on the side of the bed and I was right beside her kind of holding her up. I had my arm around her and she was laying her head on my shoulder. I told her that I wished that was not happening. She of course said she wished it was not happening too. We just sat there kind of holding each other for a bit. What a tragedy. But you know this is what smoking can do to you and she knows it and has always been the first to say that she wishes she had never smoked ever!! The odd thing is that some of her family that has been coming to see her still smoke. I watch them excuse themselves to go smoke and I think..wow...look.... you have the perfect example in front of you of what might happen to you if you continue!! Can't you see????? Don't you understand?? You almost want to scream for them to look and really really see...but they don't. I have never smoked so I guess I don't understand the habit they have developed!! Sorry to those of you that DO SMOKE but right now I am feeling so upset. I hope that you understand just how I feel to watch my friend dying!!

I treated myself today to a pedicure and a manicure!! I never and I mean never do both...it is just too expensive but I am so tired that I thought I would just do it anyhow!! So I did!! I got so relaxed that I wanted to just go lay down!! Seems like when I wake up in the mornings I am still tired!! Hm!!

I am hoping that everyone's life out there in good ole' blogland is doing great!! I love visiting each and everyone of you when I can. I have tried to get to each one but sometimes I just cannot visit everyone like I want too. I have heard that Lazy Daisy got through her surgery just fine. I wish that I could have been there for her today but there is a group from our church there this week and I am trusting them to be her angels this week.



Susan said...


I have to say that when I watched my Dad go through the Open Heart Surgery, the doctor told him that most of his stuff was brought on by the fact that he chain-smoked cigars. You know I'm always amazed that people could see the pain and suffering someone goes through and not stop those ugly habits.

Since I never was a smoker, I can't understand how this can grip you so. But I also know that every time I overeat I could be poisoning my own body...and do I stop? Not always.

It's sad for sure. I'm praying that at least ONE person gets the message from Betty's situation.

You are such a dear friend to her. I love what you are doing for her at this time. I'm sure that you are a true blessing to her and to her family.

Hugs to you,


Puss-in-Boots said...

Of course you're tired, Sandy. You're using your energy for Betty...it's natural to be exhausted. Emotions are exhausting and especially when you see Betty the way she is.

You take care of yourself, though, Sandy...I'm sure Betty would be upset if she thought you were so tired.

Hugs xoxo

Peggy said...

glad you found a little time for yourself. Give Betty a hug and tell her we still have her in our thoughts and prayers.

Twisted Cinderella said...

I am so sorry that her family can't see what is right before them. I am so sorry that it upsets you so much. ((hugs)) You are a wonderful freind to Betty and you deserve to treat yourself once in a while.

Hootin'Anni said...

Sad indeed! And so hard for friends and family such as yourself!!

Heart of Rachel said...

I know of family and close friends who still smoke despite the knowledge of its harmful effects. I'm concerned for my son because there are times he is exposed to smokers beyond my control. I don't want to come clean and say I haven't tried it before. Actually, I tried it in college but it never became a habit. I tried it again when I was working but realized my mistake and stopped completely. I wished more people will realize the terrible effects of long term smoking.

I'm sure Betty appreciated the time you spend with her. She needs true friends like you to give her strength. God bless your kindness.

Linda said...

A non smoker has no idea how hard it is to quit. I'm down to about 4 a day and I feel proud of that.

You are right about my butterfly. Isn't it interesting how we all receive the same jokes. I didn't plan anything for today, so I thought the butterfly is pretty amazing.

PEA said...

I know how hard it is to watch someone you love struggle with the pain of cancer...it's something I never want to go through again but I know that's an unrealistic wish. Betty is so very lucky to have you as her friend but I know you feel lucky to have her as a friend also:-) I think people who smoke even while they watch a loved one with cancer, don't believe it will ever happen to them so they keep on smoking. It really is sad. xox

Sandi @ the WhistleStop Cafe said...

I am reading through your blog and realize what strength you must have!
A manicure and pedicure is well deserved! I agree~ to me that is like the biggest treat in the world.
Keep smiling!

Meg said...

Nothing like pretty fingernails and toenails to make a girl feel better. Jesus is our ultimate place of rest and peace. I pray you'll feel His peace today. Blessings, Meg

Pearls of Wisdom said...

Dear Sandy,

I am so sorry for what Betty is going through. I will pray for her today. It is so hard to watch a friend go through that I am sending prayers and a hug for you. You are such a good friend. I have never smoked in my life either and it makes me sad what it does to people and they still do or can't break the habit.

Smiles and Blessings my sweet blogging friend. Thanks for your visit and kind words last week hope you visit more.


Angel Mama ():)

Talk..to..Grams said...

Sandy,So hard to watch a loved one suffer from cancer! My Mom went to be with the Lord, in 1992 from cancer, she never smoked but my Dad did and she was exposed to second hand smoke.
You are a wonderful friend for Betty to lean on. May God watch over you and give you some restful sleep.

Melli said...

Oh, I'm so sorry I didn't get by here yesterday to read this! (honestly I thought I did visit yesterday... I dunno... I think I'm losing track of time these days...) I'm SO glad you treated yourself to a manicure AND pedi! Wasn't it LOVELY? I do both about every 3 months... and I LOVE it! Of course, I do my nails every 2-3 weeks... but the feet get neglected -- too expensive to do all the time - just like you said!

It is a shame that Betty's family doesn't learn from her mistake -- it would probably be easier for her to bear if she thought some good was coming from it! And maybe they will learn in the end. It probably IS making them "think" about it -- but right now is probably way too stressful a time for them to quit! If they need that crutch day-to-day, they probably REALLY need it right now! But maybe when it's all over and done, maybe they WILL quit from having watched her go through this... we can hope... and pray!

Love you!