Friday, January 30, 2009

I'm Not DEAD yet!!



Have you ever felt like you were stuck in a rut? Every day is the same as the day before? Wishing that someway you could be a better person in this world? Wanting to help out financially but not knowing just quite how?

This is a good list of questions...no answers that i can find. I simply LOVE being at home..I love knowing that I have a home!! One that I keep clean and it looks good for others when they come here..but they don't come...hmmm!!

I like schedules but I do like having them upset a little with something FUN to do...But that is not happening now because the money is not here...Staying at home is about all that can be done right now.

I feel like I am a better person today than I was even yesterday but getting stuck in a rut is not fun either!! Wonder why I feel like that? I am just sort of writing this just to write it because it is the way that I feel today.

I would LOVE to be able to have some income that would help us out..I am not dead yet and i still have some skills that I can offer...but I just wish that I could find something to do here at home with my computer...

Where is that special someone with a lot of money that has a company that needs people to do entering for them...they would have no over head...no insurance to pay...I could do the data entering for them..plus many of you could also do this and have income too..Where is that person? I just think this would be a great way for someone to help out their company and give us who have a little bit of skills, make some income to help out in these slim times.

I did not go to college...well i could have..but i choose to get married instead..Still think it was a wise decision. As I think back about that I made the correct decision...IF I had not married when I did i would not have finished college...I would have either quite in the middle or I would have got pregnant!! Honestly..i believe that is what would have happened. God was watching over me then even before I knew him as my God and Lord!!

He knew what I needed and to be honest with you..I know that HE still knows what I need and will provide...I guess I just get like this when I know that I have things to offer to an employer but wish that I could be here at home...I should have learned by now that old adage..."you can't have your cake and eat it too." That makes no sense!! smile!!

Well now that I have that off my chest..I still don't feel any better..Guess I need to rely on God and let him show me what he wants me to do...

Flip Flop
Thought for today: "What a waste of time fear is!"--Jeanne Bice

18 comments:

Denise said...

You are where God wants you to be sweetie, love you. I love the new blog look.

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Lazy Daisy said...

Hey babe, Sounds like you are a bit down today. So glad you are not dead! That is certainly worth celebrating. Finally got Mr. Wonderful to go get hearing aides. He gets them Wednesday. He was surprised to find out he has significant hearing loss. Well duh? Wish I could come over and watch a movie with you.

Smilingsal said...

I enter data for my church. There's no pay; I work as a volunteer, but the good part is that I can work from home. It's because of the computer program that they use. Check it out with your church. They might be able to use you!

Zaroga said...

Yes, sometimes it is good to get things off our chest.

Hang in there, Sweetie. You do your part and Heavenly Father will do his.

Melli said...

Sounds like exactly the thing to do... ask God what He WANTS you to be doing - and then listen for the answer. You may find he wants you right where you are.... or he may lead you to another PERFECT place for you to be for right now. But asking Him is always the best. UNfortunately I AM in that rut too - but in this rut definitely IS where He wants me right now -- no matter how much I want to be out of it. He has spoken, and on this at least, I obey! It is not without benefits... I DO get to stay home! And I do get to go places when I want to... she travels well. But you know what I think? I think even when we ask for something, and He gives it to us, WE still find a way to want something else too! You know... I MEANT I want to be able to stay home BY MYSELF annnnnd have all the money I need to go to lunch with friends a few times a week, annnnnnd travel at will. I didn't MEAN I wanted to stay home WITH my mother-in-law Lord! *shrug*... I reckon I'll take what I can get! LOL!

I looked for work on the computer waaaaaay back when the kids were young -- and now it's Amanda's turn -- she's looking for ways to be able to keep staying home with Luz. NONE of us has ever just "lucked" into that kind of job! The only people I know who HAVE that kind of job have it because they worked a lot of years for the same company and developed a trust with their employers that they WOULD get the job done at home and not waste company time. I don't know ANYone with an entry level position who gets to work at home. UGH! Just poooooor planning on OUR parts Sandy! That's all!

Puss-in-Boots said...

Oh Sandy, I feel for you, I really do. Do you have any experience in medical typing or just any typing...using a computer of course. If you go online and Google work from home or something like that, you may find some work to do. It's worth a try anyway.

Good luck!

Deanna said...

I know just how you feel. There must be something in the air around here right now. I just had an encounter with a person who has no work ethic. Makes me angry. I hate it when companies hire 'warm bodies' instead of someone who will really be an asset to the company. Their cheaper, I guess. Hang in there! Hugs from me!

Talk..to..Grams said...

I just love your new look!! You sound a little down today. I think it is the staying in the house all the time!! I had a melt down a few weeks ago when I had not been out for over a week. The girls took Nancy and me on ride and we went a lake around here. We saw pretty red birds.... And a huge racoon! Nancy went nuts when she saw it!!! Hugs Grams

Betty said...

Everything happens for a reason, Sandy, and we all just have to trust that God has us exactly where we need to be for today.

I hope your spirits are lifted soon.

Heart of Rachel said...

((( Hugs ))) to you Sandy. I hope that things will get better soon. God bless.

donna said...

Just wanted to let you know that I just found your blog and really enjoy it. Also really like the over 50 bloggers

donna

Linda said...

A rut, yes, a rut. That must be my problem lately trying to blog. Being stuck in all week, doing the same ole same ole leads to little creativity and motivation.

Hope you start feeling better!

Hugs,
Linda

Maggie Ann said...

If you worked maybe you wouldn't have time to blog!!! what a horrid thought. I'd miss you! I know I don't get around as much as I should...but I'm always glad you're here when I come by. You know what...I'm going to rent the bees' movie you told me about. I watched Sleepless in Seattle last night and except for one part...really enjoyed it. Have you seen that? Walter was a pretty nice guy too. I'm so enjoying good movies right now. Not a bad thing....grin. I'd better grab a nap before choir practise...I keep saying that and here I am blogging...yet. With a smile though. LOVE your Valentine-y blog!

Susie said...

Hi Sandy,
Sorry to read you're feeling a bit down. Working with your computer sounds like a good way to bring in some extra income. I know jobs are a bit hard to find in these times with so many out of work.
Sending you ((hugs))

Deare Diary said...

Hi Sandy,
This is my first visit to your blog and I have enjoyed my visit. I have been blog surfing in search of interestin, encouraging, uplifting and funny blogs. I have found that here. I will be following your blog and I am looking foward to reading more. Let God use you right where you are and he will take care of the rest.Hope that you will visit me at my blog and receive an award that I have left for my new blogger buddies and that includes you.
Judy Deare

Decadent Housewife said...

Flip Flop, go for an invigorating walk...unless you're sitting under a couple of feet of snow, like we are.

Maybe some fresh new ideas will come to mind. And you'll get some much needed D, we all are a little short of this time of year. :)

PEA said...

Sandy, this could have been written by me because so many times I feel exactly the same way!!! I think the Winter months are especially hard because I don't travel during those months usually and every day is just a replica of the other. The situation I am in at home also makes it hard (sharing the house with E but not really having anything to do with each other) and not having a job to be financially independent also takes its toll. We need to stick together and cheer each other up:-) xoxo